does this make sense to you?

so bill collectors are now calling pretty much daily. my dad's FOUR hospital stays (one for a week) did not go by unnoticed. My dad is already talking about the car and life insurance payments that will soon be coming up when I mention getting a new computer, since my parents have pretty much destroyed all three. My car needs repairs and my dad's car has a destroyed oil pan. Not to mention, I'll need to pay for another semester of grad school soon. So.. with all these impending expensive payments, you'd think my family would behave frugally. NOPE. Dad bought a $1200 television today. We already have three tvs. Not one has a working dvd player. Oh.. but this tv is different.. it hooks up to the internet. So I have to unplug the internet from my computer to use it. And it can't hook up to television at the same time. Cause that comes in another room. Plus our antennae is so bad that barely any channels work. And my dad is mad at ME for thinking this tv was a bad idea. I understand my dad is a gadget nut (we have our very own weather station in the back yard), but this is ridiculous. We're going to lose the house and dad is buying another tv. Dear lord give me the strength not to murder my parents in their beds.

returning to the nest

I take back every complaint I ever made about my old job, or living in Naperville. While both were horrible, neither is as bad as being unemployed, unemployable, and living with my mother. Apart from the benefit of having a real, live psychopath that I can practice diagnosing, there is very little keeping me from jumping off the nearest bridge. Add to the fact that nearly every other aspect of my life has gone up in flames and the idea that I'm going to die a spinster gets more realistic every day and... it's a wonder I don't jump in front of the bus every morning. I know, I know.. I'm young. I'll finish grad school, meet a nice man or woman, get a job, and find a nice apartment with lots of locks and a new phone number.

Well.. I'll probably finish grad school, as I've already signed up for $20,000 in loans and I'd hate for all that to go for naught. Meeting someone gets a little more difficult, as I'm terrible at first impressions and even worse at keeping friends. I'm at a new school, and while I've made a fair amount of friends, I barely speak to anyone else. I don't know how to start conversations. I feel too boring and sluggish. Nearly a year of unemployment and too much t.v. has rotted my brain. And while I've ditched guys who treat me like a rest stop, it appears that that has cut out all of my prospects. As for a job.. we'll see. It's not like social services ever got much money, and after this election, they'll probably get even less. Fucking teabaggers. I'll keep dreaming for my own place though. Sometimes the only thing that gets me through my mother's waking hours is imagining how I'll decorate my bathroom.